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  THE WARD

  S.L. Grey is a collaboration between Sarah Lotz and Louis Greenberg. Based in Cape Town, Sarah writes crime novels under her own name, and as Lily Herne she and her daughter Savannah Lotz write the Deadlands series of zombie novels for young adults. Louis is a Johannesburg-based fiction writer and editor who worked in the book trade for many years. He has a Master’s degree in vampire fiction and a doctorate in post-religious apocalyptic fiction.

  First published in trade paperback in Great Britain

  in 2012 by Corvus, an imprint of Atlantic Books Ltd.

  Copyright © S. L. Grey, 2012.

  The moral right of S. L. Grey to be identified as the author of this work has been asserted in accordance with the Copyright, Designs and Patents Act of 1988.

  All rights reserved. No part of this publication may be reproduced, stored in a retrieval system, or transmitted in any form or by any means, electronic, mechanical, photocopying, recording, or otherwise, without the prior permission of both the copyright owner and the above publisher of this book.

  This is entirely a work of fiction. The names, characters and incidents portrayed in it are the work of the author’s imagination. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, events or localities, is entirely coincidental.

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  A CIP catalogue record for this book is available

  from the British Library.

  Paperback ISBN: 978 0 85789 586 8

  E-book ISBN: 978 0 85789 587 5

  Printed in Great Britain

  Corvus

  An imprint of Atlantic Books Ltd

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  S.L. Grey thanks: Lauren Beukes, Rina Gill, Mike

  Grant, Adam Greenberg, Sam Greenberg,

  Bronwyn Harris, Sarah Holtshausen, Savannah

  Lotz, Charlie Martins, Helen Moffett, Oliver

  Munson, Sara O’Keeffe, Laura Palmer, Lucy

  Ridout, Becci Sharpe, Alan and Carol Walters,

  Maddie West, Naomi Wicks and Sam Wilson.

  CONTENTS

  PART 1 >>

  chapter 1: FARRELL

  chapter 2: LISA

  chapter 3: FARRELL

  chapter 4: LISA

  chapter 5: FARRELL

  chapter 6: LISA

  chapter 7: FARRELL

  chapter 8: LISA

  chapter 9: FARRELL

  chapter 10: LISA

  chapter 11: FARRELL

  chapter 12: LISA

  chapter 13: FARRELL

  chapter 14: LISA

  chapter 15: FARRELL

  chapter 16: LISA

  chapter 17: FARRELL

  chapter 18: LISA

  chapter 19: FARRELL

  chapter 20: LISA

  PART 2 >>

  chapter 21: FARRELL

  chapter 22: LISA

  chapter 23: FARRELL

  chapter 24: LISA

  chapter 25: FARRELL

  chapter 26: LISA

  chapter 27: FARRELL

  chapter 28: LISA

  chapter 29: FARRELL

  PART 1 >>

  chapter 1

  FARRELL

  I can’t see.

  I try again. Open my eyes.

  Nothing.

  Or rather, when I open my eyes there’s a shear of pain which might be light if I could see. But I can’t see and the light goes straight into my cortex and becomes pain.

  This can’t be happening to me. I turn my head away from the doorway, and try to make the rest of my body follow, but it’s heavy and it takes all my effort to budge. When I do manage to twist my legs and arms over, there’s a rip in my right arm and a pinch and pull on my dick. I stay where I am, squeezing my eyelids closed, panting, head pressed against something hard and cold.

  Someone grabs my sore arm and shoves it off my side with an impatient tut, and pulls at something embedded in the soft skin in the crook of my elbow. I try to move my fingers but my hand is bandaged. I smell sweat, bad breath, something medicinal, the reek of burned stew. Something’s clamped onto my finger, then there’s a liquid slosh and a rustle of cardboard or plastic. Finally the pain in my eyes recedes with a flash. Now I recognise it: somebody’s turned off the light.

  Where am I? I open my eyes again, but I only see darkness for a second before the acid burn returns. I close my eyes and feel around with my left hand. Sheets, narrow mattress with a metal rail. Tape in the crook of my right arm, a narrow tube leading upwards. Muffled rattling sounds and beeps from outside, loud conversation, crying, a resigned moaning.

  I’m in a hospital.

  Where’s my iPhone? It’s an effort to pat down my body to check my pockets but I realise I’m wearing a short gown, tied loosely at the back. Where did I leave my camera? Where the fuck’s my stuff?

  Hospital beds have call buttons, right? I feel along the cold edges of the bed – nothing – then probe my unbandaged left hand into the space beyond it. On my left, some sort of cabinet. On my right, nothing until the drip tube stretches and tugs at my vein. I try not to imagine a void, but the vertigo makes me want to vomit. I clutch my hands over my chest for a few minutes until the panic subsides. I feel behind me. Blank wall, then a plastic plate of some sort. I finger it for the call button until I realise it’s an electrical socket.

  Fuck. What kind of a moron built this place?

  Christ, I need my phone. How did I get here? What happened to me? I don’t feel like I’ve broken anything. I don’t feel any serious pain, except for my eyes when I try to open them. But I’m weak, and moving hurts. ‘Hello?’ I call. ‘Hello?’ My voice is too feeble. I try to knock my knuckles on the bed’s railing. Nobody comes.

  I close my eyes. I draft a MindRead post in my head. 140 characters or less. MRers, help. Pls check my FindMe app and report back. Don’t know where I am.

  I’m sure if I crowdsourced this problem one of my followers would help me out in minutes. But then again, if I could get online to post the problem I wouldn’t need to crowdsource the fucking solution in the first place.

  I could just call Katya. She’d take my call, even after what happened. I could use the hospital’s phone. But I don’t even have the strength to turn over, let alone walk around looking for a phone. Oh yeah, and I can’t see to look for a phone. And nobody can hear me fucking calling. Jesus Christ!

  This would be funny if it wasn’t happening to me.

  ‘Hello? Hello?’

  Come to think of it, what did happen with Katya? I know something happened, but, when I try to think about it directly, it’s like I’ve got a blind spot. All I have in my head is this still of her leaving, crying. That doesn’t help. She’s done that a few times before.

  But I didn’t do anything to hurt her, not that I can remember. What the fuck happened? Did Glenn do this? Where am I? And what’s wrong with me?

  Maybe Glenn thought I cheated on Katya or something. That would give him the excuse he needed. Maybe Katya told him that. But she’d never do that if it wasn’t true. She loves me.

  Oh Jesus. Glenn’s going to find me and kill me. He’s going to find me lying here, wherever the fuck I am, blind and half naked, and he’s going to kill me. Christ. Oh Jesus. Oh Jesus.

  ‘Hello? Help!’ At last I’m shouting loud enough.

  ‘Yes? What?’ A woman’s voice barks at me.

  ‘Where am I?’

  The woman sighs. ‘New Hope Hospital. Green Section,’ she finally says, like a prisoner of war giving up his name and rank.

  Oh shit. ‘New Hope? Why am I here? I’ve got medical aid.’

  ‘No. Medical aid had no record of you. They brought you here.’

  ‘What do you mean no record?’
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  I can just imagine her smirking at me. Rich man lying helpless in a state hospital, finding out how the other half lives.

  ‘Expired, actually.’

  I’m going to fucking kill Lizzie. She’s supposed to handle my medical aid and bullshit like that. Jesus. I’ve heard horror stories about this dump. Everyone calls it ‘No Hope’. I can’t believe I’ve landed up in here.

  ‘You need to call Da Bomb Studios. Speak to Lizzie Gebhart, my assistant. She’ll sort it out.’

  ‘I’m not phoning for you. It’s your problem.’

  ‘Okay, then. Tell me where my phone is. I’ll call myself.’

  ‘Your personal belongings are in your cubby.’

  ‘Do you mind? Could you—’ But she’s gone.

  I say, ‘Hello? Hello?’ a bit but I know I’m wasting my breath. I try to feel around the bed for my cubby – wherever that is – but I’m really tired. I curl up and imagine what I’d say if I could get online.

  MR alert: &JoshFarrell has found self. In fucking No Hope, can you believe!?

  &LizzieGstring you’re in deep shit. Prepare for a month’s mail duty.

  At least that brings a smile to my face as I fall asleep.

  I struggle to wake up. Someone’s talking to me. A man.

  ‘… so apologies for the cramped conditions. I’m afraid New Hope doesn’t have any private wards.’ He pauses, no doubt sharing a joke at my expense with the grumpy nurse. ‘But, after last year, nobody’s keen on a measles epidemic again.’

  ‘Measles?’

  ‘That’s what you’ve got, Mr Farrell.’

  Measles?

  ‘As you can tell, it’s a serious disease. Especially in adults. It’s notifiable. Any idea where you caught it?’

  ‘No. How—’

  ‘Could be anywhere. I keep telling the board that it’s only going to end when mandatory immunisation kicks in. Eventually it’s going to kill everyone who doesn’t get vaccinated.’

  ‘Can measles make me… make me not able to see?’ I can’t even say the word ‘blind’. I can’t go blind. I’m a photographer, for God’s sake. Seeing is my work. Seeing is my fucking life. ‘I’ll get better, right, Doctor?’ I say in as deferent a tone as I can manage, as if he’s personally in charge of whether I will see again or not.

  He breathes out a long pause. ‘Uh, there are rare cases of permanent eye damage. At the onset of the measles we typically advise that you take twenty thousand units of vitamin A and that will usually protect you. Your GP should have prescribed—’

  ‘I didn’t go to a GP. I don’t know how I got here. Or when.’

  ‘There is a good chance your sight will recover,’ the doctor says. ‘But it’s crucial that the ophthalmologist sees you and prescribes an antibiotic suspension. It’s a shame we missed him yesterday. He’ll be doing his rounds in this section again tomorrow.’

  ‘But… if I need the medicine now to prevent—’

  ‘We’ll see what we can do. The best thing to do is get the virus out of your system and recover. You need to rest and replenish. You have severe liver damage and bronchitis and your kidneys are in distress. All you need to do is lie still and let the drip do its work.’

  The doctor leaves and I start to probe the space around my bed for the cubby.

  ‘Can I help you with that, Mr Farrell?’

  I jerk with fright and then pretend I didn’t.

  ‘I’m Nomsa,’ the woman says in a comfortable, attractive voice. She’s standing near me, and she smells of quality soap and hand lotion. ‘I’m a supply nurse here. I’ve just come on shift.’ She presses something into my left hand. Her hands are leathery, but smooth. ‘Here’s a call button. We rigged up a remote one for you. I bet you don’t know you’re bedded in a supply closet. Closest we get to an isolation ward in Green Section.’ She laughs.

  She makes me feel at ease for the first time in… since I came here. ‘Thanks. That other nurse…’

  ‘Sister Elizabeth?’

  ‘She’s not very helpful.’

  ‘No. But she’s good at her job. She’s here all the time. Almost runs the section. It’s thankless work and terrible conditions. At least I get a chance to work in the private clinics half the time. Get a break from all this.’

  ‘I suppose.’

  ‘You were looking for…?’

  ‘My stuff. She said it was in a cubby.’

  Nomsa rustles next to my bed, and pushes a plastic bag into my hands. The bag’s handles are tied together at the top and I can’t open them with my right hand bandaged. Under the dressing, my palm hurts like hell. Nomsa takes over and opens the bags. ‘We should get that to the laundry, probably,’ she says as the stench hits me.

  I dig around inside. I can feel my jeans by the oversized Batman belt buckle. They’re damp with what smells like rotten vomit and ammonia. I grit back the urge to puke as I rifle around for the pockets. Thank God. I drop the bag over the edge of the cot and wipe my iPhone and wallet on the edge of the sheet.

  ‘Is there a camera bag in there?’ I ask Nomsa.

  I put my hands over my eyes while she shuffles through the cubby next to me. ‘No. Sorry.’ Jesus. Where could I have left it? I can’t even remember how I got here, where I was.

  ‘Nomsa, do you mind dialling a number for me?’ I hold out the phone in Nomsa’s direction.

  She takes it. ‘Looks like it’s off.’

  ‘You can just turn it on. Little button on the top.’

  A minute. ‘No. Nothing. Maybe the battery’s dead.’

  Fuck. ‘You don’t have an iPhone charger, do you?’

  She just laughs. ‘May I take your valuables for safekeeping at the nurses’ station? Safer than leaving them in here.’

  I hesitate.

  ‘To be honest, patients’ valuables go missing all the time. It’s much safer to lock them up at the nurses’ station.’

  What am I going to do with a dead phone anyway? ‘Okay. Thanks.’ She lifts the handset and wallet off my chest and I can actually feel my phone getting further away from me. It’s fucking ridiculous. I think about asking her to give me the photo of Katya from my wallet. But what would be the point? I can’t fucking see it.

  ‘Just press the call button if you need anything.’

  ‘Nomsa?’

  ‘Mr Farrell?’

  ‘What day is it?’

  ‘The sixteenth.’

  ‘What day of the week?’

  ‘Wednesday.’

  It was Monday morning when Katya left. I must have been here two days. I can’t remember anything. What did I do?

  Shit. Maybe Katya caught the measles too. I’ve got to get hold of her.

  ‘I need to…’ I try to sit up and a slump of blood pressure makes me woozy and nauseous. ‘Ugh.’

  ‘You just need to rest. That’s the most important thing, Mr Farrell.’

  ‘Nomsa?’

  ‘Yes, Mr Farrell.’

  ‘You’ve been really helpful. Can I ask you one more favour?’

  ‘Ask away.’

  ‘I need to get hold of my girlfriend, and someone at work. Could you call them for me?’

  ‘Of course. What are their numbers?’

  Jesus. They’re in my phone, not in my head. But, with effort, I piece together Katya’s cell number and give it to her. ‘Work should be in the book, under Da Bomb Studios. Speak to Eduardo da Gama or Lizzie Gebhart.’

  ‘I’ll give them a call, let them know you’re here. You’ll have to pay, though.’

  ‘Sorry?’

  ‘Oh, don’t worry, Mr Farrell. Just joking.’

  I hear a clink as she hangs another drip. As my nausea settles, I feel sleepy once more.

  I wake up screaming. Acid scours along the veins in my right arm. I forget my eyes and open them wide; the pain belts me as I make out the figure of a large man standing by my bedside. Someone’s trying to kill me. I feel three drops of something fall onto my face. I give in to unconsciousness.

  I dream someone’s
lifting the sheets, removing my gown. I feel something soft running over my body, like a delicate fingertip. In the dream, I try to open my eyes to see Katya, but my eyes are glued shut. There’s a flash like lightning through my eyelids, then the sheet is replaced again.

  When I wake, Nomsa is changing the J-loop of my drip. ‘I don’t know how this happened, Mr Farrell. Someone… did it wrong. Let’s replace it. This might…’ As she draws the needle out, it feels like she’s dragging a fish hook through my veins.

  ‘Hang on, hang on.’ She puts my arm down for a second and I hear the snap of rubber gloves and feel the slickness of blood trickling down my arm. ‘Eish,’ she says under her breath and squeezes my arm above the entry point. I try to open my eyes to see what’s happening. I see the vague shape of Nomsa silhouetted against a shaft of light from the doorway, in the exact same position as the large man in the night, then the pain kicks in and I have to flinch away and squeeze my eyes shut.

  I saw! I saw for a second there! My eyes are getting better. They’re getting better!

  ‘Orderly!’ Nomsa calls into the corridor. ‘Orderly!’ Trying to disguise the panic in her voice. Someone else runs into the room.

  ‘Shit,’ he says.

  ‘Hold this,’ says Nomsa.

  The fingers on my upper arm change owners. There’s a tug and a rub and another couple of tugs at the wound in my arm, then a dressing is pressed over it. Another scrub and a dressing is finally taped in position.

  ‘That… that was…’ Nomsa starts, but stops again. ‘We’ll need to put the drip in your left arm, okay, Mr Farrell?’

  ‘Mm,’ I mumble, worrying about the numbness in my right arm and wanting to sleep again.

  Soon I’m hooked up again and my head tilts comfortably to the darker side of the closet, the side away from the door. I test my eyes. Open one-two-three burn. MR alert: &JoshFarrell can see. Open one-two-three-four burn. Open one-two-three-four-five burn. Then my eyes are too heavy to try again.

  Chapter 2

  LISA

  ‘Now, Ms Cassavetes,’ the doctor says, yawning and scanning my chart. ‘You haven’t been entirely truthful with us, have you?’